i am a nasty, selfish little ass-face (and i love you)

[transmothra]

or: A Confession, an Admission of Wickedness; Wherein a Misdeed Moste Terrible is More or Less Put Right, Albeit Rather Belatedly, But at Leaste With Some Smalle Amounte of Flayre

*sigh*

here goes...

Mom... Dad... i've been taking Marijuana

i haven't read anybody else's LJ (except for a very few close friends, and a far fewer far friends/idols/feeds) in probably over a year now.

in fact, although i have 55 total friends, watch over 200 communities, and have 44 syndicated feeds, i have been tightly filtering my friends page down to something like 40-50 total sources. that means that some of you, i sincerely regret, have been, in the past, to put it, well, bluntly, but at least, somewhat, buffered by several commas, cut out.

and i hate that, because i love all of you kooky freaks. and i miss those of you who i haven't been reading lately.

well, mainly it had a lot (read: everything) to do with the fact that i didn't have a computer and thus had limited online time available to play catch-up. i now have a computer, don't i? what have i been waiting for?

i feel like such a bad friend. i have been a bad friend. one who deserves a spanking.

it occurred to me recently that i have only been hanging on to LJ for the community. not the communities. the community. i have my new dumb little blog, and i do enjoy posting there. in fact, i have posted there more than anywhere else of late. it's mine, and i'm proud of it. i can do literally anything i want there. i don't have to learn some esoteric new meta-markup just to make it look pretty (which it doesn't anyway, but i digress). the air is nice, and the view of the internet is breathtaking. it's nice to move from a coliseum to the open air of a field. it is! but while my sound may, at least in theory, travel much farther, the sound back from those i look upon is considerably muted by distance (and, truthfully, lack of participants).

so while i may post there more often, please be assured that i am reading every wonderful little word that you are writing. except for those which you have selfishly locked away from my prying eyes. (yes, i am no longer hacking into your account. and i'm very sorry about that.)

also, while i'm not keen on pointing out who exactly i've wronged (as i'm additionally not keen on pointing out my own shame and guilt and myriad of iniquities), i do wish to make it clear that although i may well not have commented in a long, long time, i have definitely been reading more of you folks than you might think, anyway.

my new must-read filter will now contain only those communities and feeds that i am fond of, but also every single human being who is currently a mutual friend.

the floodgates are now open. completely, and fully. welcome back, my darling little kittens. i have missed you so.

Comments

[olivetree.livejournal.com]

You actually made me properly paranoid (for about 10 seconds), you evil little mutant, you.

Well done!

[transmothra.livejournal.com]

haha! for a minute there, i had to reread my post, until i remembered that i was definitely expecting that response. hee hee! i don't mean to upset anyone, i absolutely promise! (just freak a few fuckas out!)

;) <3

[redrosebud.livejournal.com]

good! i missed you so!!

[transmothra.livejournal.com]

you'll never ever be filtered out, ya. you're far too cool. post more though pls k thx.

:D

[theredheaddiva.livejournal.com]

Yay! :)

[transmothra.livejournal.com]

i don't know if i ever did filter you, but you've been on my "must-read" list for longer than i can actually remember. of course, i don't always have time to do much more than skim my friends page, but you're pretty goddamn groovy, ya know that? seriously. and i am way happy for you and your relationship. it really sounds like it's going every bit as good as mine is, and that's just awesome!

[theredheaddiva.livejournal.com]

We have been on each other's flist for quite a while now and it's been fun to watch each other move and grow over time through this weird little window. I've always enjoyed having you as one of my cooler, ethereal internet friends. :)

Best of luck to both of us!!! Life is SWEET!!

[mistressxenobia.livejournal.com]

HA!
You read mine, didn't you?
Because I GOT COMMENTS!!!!!!



HA HA HA HA HA HA!

PWND ALL OF YOU OTHER FOOLS!
EAT IT BITCHES!
IN YOUR FACE!











Man, I'll be kinda shamefaced if you didn't actually keep up with my journal & just popped in now & again.


Anyway, I'mma set up xenobia.net again soon & just blog there I think.
But, then again, I may rss feed my lj there or something.

[transmothra.livejournal.com]

you're the only one i filtered out. HEAVILY filtered. i made filters just to filter the ones that were filtering YOUR crunk-ass shit.

hell no (you don't post enough actually), but seriously, that was the mostest funniest fucking comment i've seen in a long time. thank for being you, you awesome motherfucker.

xenobia.net! xenobia.net! xenobia.net! xenobia.net! xenobia.net!!!!!

try Wordpress, it's fucking way awesome.

[diziara.livejournal.com]

Well, you can't feel guilty about me. Until about a month ago, I had a "non-read" filter of people who I didn't mind reading my stuff, but I wasn't actually reading their stuff. You were on that filter. Then I realized I was tired of the games, and was very disappointed with myself for playing those games I hated so (you know, the everyone must friend everyone who friends them game, and other LJ drama classics). Thus I de-friended most of the people in the non-read filter, realized I'd wrongly banished a couple people from my default view, and also realized that a significant chunk of people on my friends list I was only "reading" and not actually paying attention to a single thing they were writing. Thus the major culling took place.

Since then, I've found myself a little happier, as I'm no longer spending whole chunks of wasted time scrolling past entries or scanning through entries about dren I am not interested in the slightest. I've also removed some communities that were full of nothing but wankers, and thus have reduced my LJ footprint to something a little more manageable. I suppose if I can't sort out my life, I can at least manage my LJ nice and neat.

[transmothra.livejournal.com]

you've always been one of my favorite smartypants. mainly 'coz you don't talk shit, and you can back it up.

i agree about the friends thing. i find that i really honestly enjoy and look up to everyone on my friends list, and so i'm pretty happy where it's at. the communities could definitely use some culling, but the individuals are all very cool people who i'd love to know in real life. i rarely ever have much time to really read my friends page very deeply, MUCH less comment, though, but i just can't stand the idea of actually bothering to filter it down to just a few of my closest friends anymore. of course, it helps that i have my own computer again.

so now that i'm communicating again, i should articulate how truly cool i think you really are. you are brilliant, talented, and very fun. nothing ever gets past you or goes over your head, even when i'm talking about unintelligible, esoteric gobbledygook, and that is way, WAY neat.

[diziara.livejournal.com]

You obviously haven't been reading my journal lately if you can say anything of that sort about me. :-P I honestly don't feel like I can do a gorram thing right lately. Well, occasionally I get things okay at work, but even there I don't feel like anything is going right because corporate trys to beat me down and build me back up into a soul sucking commission jocky.

[aimercat.livejournal.com]

well i know you read mine, so i'm flattered and honored. thank you.

[bowstlovedrug.livejournal.com]

well, to be honest, i'm not offended if you havent been reading me... i dont write much worth reading. ;) I havent been keeping up with 90% of my LJ flist either, but I DO keep up with you and about 3 other people. Life isnt much interesting right now, but no news is good news. ;) even if im quiet, im still here.