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damn, i'm just going through the 55+ themes i've narrowed down for my phpNuke and doing custom logos and graphics for each one. what a pain in the ass! i've only got maybe a dozen or so themes done so far. some of them have a million damn logo graphics, too. grr.

i've decided not to register internetfucker.com and instead i'm going with... [drumroll] ...technothrope.com! (if you have to ask...). spooge.com was taken, as was a whole slew of other cool sounding onomatopoeias. i should have something working in the next coupla weeks, so keep yer eyes peel't.

my uncle Kent will be here tomorrow (from NYC).

safety tip #232: it's okay to move an electric shaver in a side-to-side motion if you need to get into a tight spot, such as underneath the nose. not so with an actual razor. i now have a second mouth to prove it.

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this week, i will wear at least one article of black clothing a day, in honour of all the dead Indians who we white people killed because we were disloyal and ungrateful. how's that grab ya? a holiday called "Thanksgiving" that becomes such a tradition mainly among ingrates and descendants of ingrates!

i will give thanks for the fact that at least white people did stop just short of succeeding in their genocidal plans for ethnic cleansing of the American Indian.

mostly, i will give thanks that the world was blessed by a people such as they, who should have retaliated more than they actually did. they in fact should rise up again and kill all the white people on this continent, (okay, that's maybe a little harsh, heheh) ...at least rid the place of us, but they probably won't. why? who knows. any attempt at explaining it would have to rely on oversimplified mass generalisation, like "they're Good People". oh well, a lot of them are, so there.

how many things do you know about hippies? (probably a lot.)
how many things do you know about New World Indians? (probably not much.)
it's funny... i realised this years ago, but it was articulated perfectly a few years ago in the wonderful movie Smoke Signals (highly recommended film, especially for flooding, if she's still on her Indian kick):
white people want to be Indians, especially in the 60s when people were having their own little versions of vision quests on LSD and mescaline, and so they dressed up in homemade clothing and wore sandals and beads and long hair and pass pipes around. probably why i don't identify with hippies so much anymore... on top of being accidental conformists (oh, hi goth kids!), they're also mostly a bunch of fakes. look at those Boomer bastards now - most of them sold out and now vote Republican.

anyways:
THANK YOU TO ALL THE INDIANS OF THE AMERICAS!!

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welcome afrodite79! (one seriously cool chick)

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i wish i were on my own and far away again... i used to fast every Thanksgiving, as a way of atoning -in my own small, humble way- for the sins of my ancestors.

i'm lucky, actually. none of my ancestors were slave "owners" (that we know of), so they were probably not all that bad. and as far as Indians are concerned, there probably wasn't much conflict in my tree, either- i'm related, somehow (and probably fairly distantly), to John Smith, the guy who married Pocahontas (and who, incidentally, had a bit of a reputation as a seer). i don't think i have any Indian blood, but i may. it's hard to tell. i do think my grandfather looks Cherokee, though. he has a long, rectangular face, with high cheekbones, and is fairly tall. still... it can't be much, if any at all.

(i have this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach that i may in fact be 100 damn % white. god damn barbarians!)

of course, i know absolutely nothing about my mother's side of the family. but even though they're all terrible people as far as i'm concerned, i suspect they also have a similarly humane background.

i don't know what i'd do if i discovered some horrible, dark story concerning some disturbing inhumanity in my family tree. i know i'd have profound turmoil in my soul, but to what end?

could you kill? could you kill an evil tyrant, or an oppressor? i wonder if i could or not... if i'd have the strength, the will, to take another life. i believe that i could be enraged enough to do it, depending upon the degree of the atrocity, but would i have the guts? i know, i know... i preach nonviolence and understanding and all that... but history has shown us that it rarely works as well as it did for Mohandas "Mohatma" ("Father") Gandhi (who of course is like as unto a god to me). and i can't help thinking that in some very dire circumstances... ah, i can't bring myself to even finish the thought....

which path is the more enlightened? to kill an evil man... or to let him live and possibly, perhaps even probably, inflict sorrow and suffering upon many more victims? (hey... Jedis kill all the time.) ...advice, and koans, are welcome. i truly wish to know.

(we will assume, for the time being, that the term "evil" contains no ambivalence as referenced.)