oh for shit's sake

[transmothra]

weird, one of my non-LJ pals (but a reader) (i know, creepy, isn't it? an outsider...! COME GET YR OWN, DAMMIT!) was on Trillian and pointed me to this. obviously referring to this post i made earlier today. i guess she still reads this... however, i'm not prejudiced against p/a; in fact one of the coolest people in the whole pentaverse is poly, and from what i can see (3/4 of a continent away that is) it works for her rather nicely most of the time, just like anything would for anybody. i also happen to think that she's somehow cooler than the rest of us for it (ha! take THAT, monogamy-idolators!), because she's got her head wrapped around it real good.

so look: i meant no offense. i was making fun of my own wacky inability to have a relationship in a post-monogamous society. in fact, even monogamy apparently isn't for me. i think praps that maybe nonogamy works better for me, as goofy as that sounds. i'm not real sure why you [wanted to] think that i was trying to be shitty, especially to you specifically. i mean, if i'm going to rant about you, i'll do it a lot less covertly [than that post], just as i have done before. but i'm not going to do that, because i have moved on from all that crap... far beyond, in fact. i was not test-firing ICBMs, much less aiming one at your capital. i was simply setting off some leftover firecrackers on the moon. so sorry i used a word you dislike. anyway, i've been taking a very laissez-faire, c'est la vie attitude about these [you-related] things lately, and it's been working out very nicely, i'm afraid. so no, nothing has been pointed at you for quite some time now, except for this. not intentionally anyway; that's the truth, as honest as it can be.

why am i always apologising for things i didn't do?

and to Autumn, and in fact all poly peeps: hey, if my post managed to offend you in any way whatsoever, then i am sorry; it was definitely not meant to.

man alive, all that from one lousy word?

and here i was: all happy, just now even had a slice of leftover pizza-pie and was about to settle down with some Sigur Ros and Radiohead and contemplate the idyllic Single Life... the next motherfucker who tries to rain on my parade is gonna get it, that's all. (November happens to be FTW month here at transmothra industries, LLC.) well... at least i got to use my new icon appropriately.

Q'sOTD (from memory):
"I contradict myself? Very well then, I contradict myself. I am large; I contain multitudes!"
-Walt Whitman

"Take my advice: don't listen to me."
-Neil Young

Comments

[tyrsalvia.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Thanks, Moffra! You're so sweet!

Yeah. Poly isn't perfect for me or anyone else (currently in the middle of an issue with my boyfriend, not going into it until I'm more comfortable that it's fully resolved), but it's what I want right now, and I think I can make it work well enough not to tear everyone apart.

I do support what I'd call 'enlightened monogamy', though - you've genuinely thought about why you want monogamy, you've evaluated other options, and you don't want them. I don't like it when people just do it by default without thinking, but I fully support it when someone has genuinely thought about the alternatives and isn't interested (roughly the same way I feel about heterosexuality, Christianity, and a lot of other mainstream type things).

[transmothra.livejournal.com]

thanks ;)

i do pride myself on sticking my hands into every pudding i see, even if i eventually decide to run away. there's only a very few things i haven't tried yet, and most of them are way too immoral or dangerous even for me (sex with a corpse, heroin, murdering someone, cannibalism, et cetera). the others i'll get around to soon enough.

& i'm sure you'll have things resolved and wrapped up soon enough. you're an excellent conduit and catalyst for resolution. maybe you should be running for president. well, when you're 35 anyway. i hope there's still a human race by then, because if there is, we could use some Good Folks like you to make sure things go smoothlier.